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.::Donovan and his thoughts::.

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My character, yatta yatta. Just an idea.

"Why can't time stand still, just for this moment only, why? Why? Is it asking too much, is it? I suppose."
"Little things in life are the hardest to grasp. Oh sometimes, so true.. so true. Eheh.."
"But what am I thinking, can't stop time, can't stop things from changing, can't stop things happening, bad or good. Can't stop the changes, no, can't do that. "
"No no..can't do that. But..but what if I could, would I really do it? Would I really? Would it matter, would it make things better or worse? Can't determine that, no. It'd be a risk. But not able to so.. it doesn't matter."
"Can only live in the present, you can't live in the past or future. Past is gone, future is near, but present is now. Present time, it's the now, it's this time, the time your living, the time everyone is living. We can't alter it in a way, change some things that could have an affect in the future."
" Because present is now, future is near, so what we do now will always affect the future. What you do today could even affect tomorrow. It could even affect what happens in an hour. It all depends."
"But time is slipping, it's slipping away from my finger tips, but there's nothing I can do about it. I can only choose what to think in the little time I have. But what if I can't think anymore? I can't hold on anymore? I can't think.. whats going on?.."
"I can't think, my mind is too clouded.. why...? I .. I don't know what to think anymore. I've been so blinded and misguided by others.. why do they treat me so coldly.."
"I want some in my life but they push me away.. I only wanted.. I-I only wanted companionship.. Someone to hold, and to also to hold me. Why is that so hard? Why am I casted aside? I only wanted to feel loved.. to feel I'm cared for.. I'm worth something. But they start to dislike me. You started to dislike me."
"I put my trust in others and they betray me... they detest me.. they hate me..."
"I show my love for others, they punish me for it. Cast me aside, leave me alone when I really need them.. even you."
"I am there for you.. why aren't you there for me..? Do I disgust you..? Am I not worthy of being loved? Of being that special someone for you?.. Am I just.. a waste?"
"If I could stop time.. I'd stop it to when I made you laugh, to when I made you smile, to when I made you happy. When you loved me, as I still love you.."
"You know I loved you above all, I loved you like no other. I showed my love in many ways, but for you.. for you it was different. It was a different love, a love thats only shared by two. Me and you."
"But you don't love me anymore.. you cast me aside, you put me down, you make me feel bad, worthless, uneasy, unwanted. Unloved. You don't smile anymore in my presence, instead there is a frown. You don't want to talk to me, or see me. Why does it hurt so much.. to know that you dislike me so.. yet I still..I still love you."
"Curse my heart.. for it does not know you don't feel the same anymore. It tells me to be near you, to love you or else it hurts.. but.."
"Eheh.. but.. ethier way it.. it .. hurts.. heh.. I can't hold on. I'm losing my sanity, I'm losing my mind.. I can't take it, it's too much. Too much even for me. I don't want to deal with this pain anymore. But what can I do..? What am I suppose to do, people betray me, even my own heart. I don't know who to turn to, or if I could."
"Is there anyone I could turn to.. have they all left me? Am I alone? Must I turn to myself, though knowing it's betraying me as well? I don't want this pain anymore, I don't want to hurt anymore. I want love, I want love from you.. because I only want you. I only want to love you, and be with you, just you. But I can't."

"Because you don't want my love, you don't want me. You want others, but not me. You would be happier with me gone.. but I would be sad with you gone."
"If I could change time.. I'd go to when we were both happy together. When we both had a smile on our face. When we both were in love, both happy. But I can't. And have to face the truth that even though I want you, you don't want me."
"I have to let go of you, have to be gone from you.. so that you can continue to smile and be happy. I do want to see you happy, but you cannot smile when I'm near. So, because of this I can never see you happy.. But I know, you will be once I'm gone."
"But even if you hate me, and are happy to see me fade away from your life. I am glad.. that you are happy. I am glad that you are smiling again, and loving again. I still will love you, no matter how much pain it brings me.."
"I will always love you..."

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Now, you can ethier point at him and laugh, and go like, omg dude, you so lame! lolol. Or you could like, have some pity for him, and be all aww, poor little guy. >:
But for me, it's like, aww, it'll be okay. Life sucks and sometimes people suck, but it'll be okay eventually, I think. Just put a smile on yer face, and be like yeaaahhh I feel great!! LAWL! When people kick you down, kick 'em right back. Right in the face. Or something!
Bleh. I'm just in one of those moods where it's like ah hell, now what? And like, yeah. I can't very much explain, but I'm sure when I get some sleep I'll probably be in a different mood. I wrote this in the early mornin', so if there's spelling mistakes, you can like kick me, or something.
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Sprite37's avatar
I wouldn't kick you for mistakes, in fact I congradulate you for typing this much, it would've driven me nuts :XD: